The rest of the week Melody felt bored, it all seemed to drag, work until she got home again, talk to Jon, make dinner and wait for Jon to phone back, half of the times she had fallen asleep behind the tv waiting for him. All she really wanted to do was be with him. He was off on Tuesday and Wednesday, but Melody wasn’t and he would be travelling to Vancouver and all of a sudden they had 3 hours time different, but Melody her day didn’t change.
By the time his show on Friday was over it was 2 am in New Jersey, he hadn’t thought of it until Melody yawned, then he remembered and he didn’t phone her on Saturday but Melody was waiting for him. After half an hour she decided to phone him.
“Melody, you should be sleeping, it’s 2.30.” He said almost stern, like he was talking to one of his kids. “Is everything all right?” He sounded worried now.”
“I was waiting for you to phone. I want to come to the airport tomorrow.”
“Are you sure?” He asked concerned.
“Yes, I can’t wait to see you.”
“Ok then. Where you were waiting last time, did you see a blue door that said private lounge behind the check in desks?” He asked and she told him she did. “I know I didn’t tell you before but they usually only let people coming and going in there to keep flights private, you can’t just go in but I’ll make sure they let you in. They’ll know when we land too and if there’s any hold ups, we land at noon.” He explained to her.
Melody wrote it all down, finally using the post-it notepad on the fridge.
They said goodbye half an hour later and Melody went back to sleep, she had gone to bed earlier but set her alarm so she would be able to talk to him. She woke up only 5 hours later and started her day by making her own breakfast and sat all by herself. To pick up Jon she wouldn’t have to leave until 10.30 so she had another 2 hours before she would have to leave.
She hadn’t seen him since Tuesday, she knew it was stupid, they’ve only known each other for 2 months but she missed him, he was her boyfriend after all. She realized he decided to make her his boyfriend only a month after they knew each other. Yes made, he made her so on Facebook; he hadn’t asked her about it. After only a month, just a month, shouldn’t it take longer than that to decide that? What was it, 5 dates? She started doubting and she didn’t even know why. Was he really serious about it? He was famous, loved by millions, why would she be the lucky one to end up with him? Just her, nothing special about her, she hadn’t done anything in life, she had gone through college, with a lot of trouble, which even hadn’t gone smoothly. She had met her ex husband and quit working when they started having kids. Those years she was actually happiest, to be with her kids, when they were little and were always happy. She had loved it, being a mom, but then she had to find a job; thank God she had Lori for that. Lori. Of course, she picked up her phone to call her and asked if she could come over. Melody couldn’t get the idea out of her head and was wondering she should still go to the city to pick him up, was it really real or was it just a fling for him. She wasn’t sure anymore about it, she started panicking. He had said he loved her, she reminded herself it were just words that anyone could say.
Only a few minutes later Lori knocked on her backdoor and walked inside through the kitchen, she looked around for Melody and found her in the living room on the couch, in pyjamas or what she called pyjamas and a blanket. Melody looked sad sitting like that. Lori sat down next to her, wondering what was wrong and a bit scared to even ask. She let it be for a minute and gathered her courage as it seemed Melody wasn’t going to say anything.
“What’s wrong?” She asked hesitantly.
Melody thought for a second, what was really wrong? “I’m not sure anymore.” She didn’t know what to say other than that.
“About what?” Lori questioned her.
“About Jon, I’m not sure about it anymore.”
“Melody, you’re going to have to say more than that, what went wrong? Did something happen?”
“Nothing went wrong, nothing happened.” Melody said plainly, annoyed with herself.
“Then what is it?” Lori started getting annoyed too, she wanted to help her friend but she couldn’t if she didn’t say what was wrong.
“I don’t know!”
Lori gave up and sat back in the couch. She waited to see if Melody was going to say something, she didn’t want to question her; she would have to say it herself and she waited.
Melody was thinking, was it really like that? She started playing the events in her head, when she had first met him in the record store, she’d been so shocked to see him, and he was so nice to her in the store. The concerts she had been to, how stressed she was when she was on her period and couldn’t have sex with him. She had been so worried about it; she was sure he wanted to then and she couldn’t give it to him, he hadn’t minded it and acted like there was nothing wrong. They still shared the bed that night; it had been the first time she was that close to him, his skin, and his smell. Remembering how his birthday had gone, the first time he said he loved her, and her heart had raced when he did. How happy she had been then, her love had been platonic but when he was actually there, being with her, she fell in love again just like that, just like the first time it only took seconds. She realized what if it had been the same for him too. She didn’t think she was anything special, but in somebody else’s eyes, maybe she was.
“I’m so stupid.” She realized.
“What do you mean?” Lori asked, glad Melody finally said something.
“I was questioning Jon’s love.” She felt so stupid saying it now, how could she even do that?
“Melody, longer explanations would help a lot.” Lori said annoyed again, typical for Melody to not say a thing when she actually wanted some help.
“I don’t know, when I woke up this morning I just started thinking about it and how fast it had gone and how, for him, it maybe was just a fling.” She explained.
“A fling? He’s been on 4 dates in 2 years; I don’t think he really does flings.” Lori added, there hadn’t been much paparazzi pictures of Jon on dates in the last 2 years, to events he went alone.
“How could I have been so stupid?” Melody slapped her hand to her forehead, how could she, she shook her head while her phone buzzed in the kitchen, she had turned down the volume, she didn’t want to hear anyone. She got up from the couch and threw her blanket where she had been sitting to get her phone. Took off 30min late, don’t worry your pretty head when we’re late love, love you.
She answered him and went back to the living room.
“I was really stupid to even think that. He’s too sweet.” Melody said shaking her head but there was a smile on her face now. Her worried feelings went away and the missing piece she’d been feeling was back. “I’m just so lonely when he’s not here. I want him around me all the time, it just makes everything better. The weekend we spend, it seemed so normal, to be there all day, him waking up right next to me, being there all day, I didn’t have to miss him.” Melody explained and realized how much she missed him and just wanted him to be there with her, when he was, everything felt better, she was happier when he was there. Her excitement to see him returned in an instant.
“Oh Mel, wow, I can’t remember you ever being like that with a guy. All the time, really? I would love some time away from Shawn once in a while.” Lori laughed the last part.
“I just miss him.” Melody shrugged. “I love him, I want him right here with me.” She said putting her hand on the couch next to her where Jon had sat on Tuesday.
“Weren’t you going a vacation with him?” Lori asked, she wasn’t sure anymore if she had understood Melody right when she told her.
“Yes, we’re going to Hawaii in 3 weeks!” Melody said all excited again, remembering she would have him all to herself then, not sharing him with other fans.
By the time his show on Friday was over it was 2 am in New Jersey, he hadn’t thought of it until Melody yawned, then he remembered and he didn’t phone her on Saturday but Melody was waiting for him. After half an hour she decided to phone him.
“Melody, you should be sleeping, it’s 2.30.” He said almost stern, like he was talking to one of his kids. “Is everything all right?” He sounded worried now.”
“I was waiting for you to phone. I want to come to the airport tomorrow.”
“Are you sure?” He asked concerned.
“Yes, I can’t wait to see you.”
“Ok then. Where you were waiting last time, did you see a blue door that said private lounge behind the check in desks?” He asked and she told him she did. “I know I didn’t tell you before but they usually only let people coming and going in there to keep flights private, you can’t just go in but I’ll make sure they let you in. They’ll know when we land too and if there’s any hold ups, we land at noon.” He explained to her.
Melody wrote it all down, finally using the post-it notepad on the fridge.
They said goodbye half an hour later and Melody went back to sleep, she had gone to bed earlier but set her alarm so she would be able to talk to him. She woke up only 5 hours later and started her day by making her own breakfast and sat all by herself. To pick up Jon she wouldn’t have to leave until 10.30 so she had another 2 hours before she would have to leave.
She hadn’t seen him since Tuesday, she knew it was stupid, they’ve only known each other for 2 months but she missed him, he was her boyfriend after all. She realized he decided to make her his boyfriend only a month after they knew each other. Yes made, he made her so on Facebook; he hadn’t asked her about it. After only a month, just a month, shouldn’t it take longer than that to decide that? What was it, 5 dates? She started doubting and she didn’t even know why. Was he really serious about it? He was famous, loved by millions, why would she be the lucky one to end up with him? Just her, nothing special about her, she hadn’t done anything in life, she had gone through college, with a lot of trouble, which even hadn’t gone smoothly. She had met her ex husband and quit working when they started having kids. Those years she was actually happiest, to be with her kids, when they were little and were always happy. She had loved it, being a mom, but then she had to find a job; thank God she had Lori for that. Lori. Of course, she picked up her phone to call her and asked if she could come over. Melody couldn’t get the idea out of her head and was wondering she should still go to the city to pick him up, was it really real or was it just a fling for him. She wasn’t sure anymore about it, she started panicking. He had said he loved her, she reminded herself it were just words that anyone could say.
Only a few minutes later Lori knocked on her backdoor and walked inside through the kitchen, she looked around for Melody and found her in the living room on the couch, in pyjamas or what she called pyjamas and a blanket. Melody looked sad sitting like that. Lori sat down next to her, wondering what was wrong and a bit scared to even ask. She let it be for a minute and gathered her courage as it seemed Melody wasn’t going to say anything.
“What’s wrong?” She asked hesitantly.
Melody thought for a second, what was really wrong? “I’m not sure anymore.” She didn’t know what to say other than that.
“About what?” Lori questioned her.
“About Jon, I’m not sure about it anymore.”
“Melody, you’re going to have to say more than that, what went wrong? Did something happen?”
“Nothing went wrong, nothing happened.” Melody said plainly, annoyed with herself.
“Then what is it?” Lori started getting annoyed too, she wanted to help her friend but she couldn’t if she didn’t say what was wrong.
“I don’t know!”
Lori gave up and sat back in the couch. She waited to see if Melody was going to say something, she didn’t want to question her; she would have to say it herself and she waited.
Melody was thinking, was it really like that? She started playing the events in her head, when she had first met him in the record store, she’d been so shocked to see him, and he was so nice to her in the store. The concerts she had been to, how stressed she was when she was on her period and couldn’t have sex with him. She had been so worried about it; she was sure he wanted to then and she couldn’t give it to him, he hadn’t minded it and acted like there was nothing wrong. They still shared the bed that night; it had been the first time she was that close to him, his skin, and his smell. Remembering how his birthday had gone, the first time he said he loved her, and her heart had raced when he did. How happy she had been then, her love had been platonic but when he was actually there, being with her, she fell in love again just like that, just like the first time it only took seconds. She realized what if it had been the same for him too. She didn’t think she was anything special, but in somebody else’s eyes, maybe she was.
“I’m so stupid.” She realized.
“What do you mean?” Lori asked, glad Melody finally said something.
“I was questioning Jon’s love.” She felt so stupid saying it now, how could she even do that?
“Melody, longer explanations would help a lot.” Lori said annoyed again, typical for Melody to not say a thing when she actually wanted some help.
“I don’t know, when I woke up this morning I just started thinking about it and how fast it had gone and how, for him, it maybe was just a fling.” She explained.
“A fling? He’s been on 4 dates in 2 years; I don’t think he really does flings.” Lori added, there hadn’t been much paparazzi pictures of Jon on dates in the last 2 years, to events he went alone.
“How could I have been so stupid?” Melody slapped her hand to her forehead, how could she, she shook her head while her phone buzzed in the kitchen, she had turned down the volume, she didn’t want to hear anyone. She got up from the couch and threw her blanket where she had been sitting to get her phone. Took off 30min late, don’t worry your pretty head when we’re late love, love you.
She answered him and went back to the living room.
“I was really stupid to even think that. He’s too sweet.” Melody said shaking her head but there was a smile on her face now. Her worried feelings went away and the missing piece she’d been feeling was back. “I’m just so lonely when he’s not here. I want him around me all the time, it just makes everything better. The weekend we spend, it seemed so normal, to be there all day, him waking up right next to me, being there all day, I didn’t have to miss him.” Melody explained and realized how much she missed him and just wanted him to be there with her, when he was, everything felt better, she was happier when he was there. Her excitement to see him returned in an instant.
“Oh Mel, wow, I can’t remember you ever being like that with a guy. All the time, really? I would love some time away from Shawn once in a while.” Lori laughed the last part.
“I just miss him.” Melody shrugged. “I love him, I want him right here with me.” She said putting her hand on the couch next to her where Jon had sat on Tuesday.
“Weren’t you going a vacation with him?” Lori asked, she wasn’t sure anymore if she had understood Melody right when she told her.
“Yes, we’re going to Hawaii in 3 weeks!” Melody said all excited again, remembering she would have him all to herself then, not sharing him with other fans.
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